How is it different from what your conception of research had been?<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\nN<\/strong>: I think opening up my mind to possibilities for creativity, whether it\u2019s science or literature or psychology, which we have spoken a lot about. How can that actually be implemented into my studio practice to create more interesting conversations? I realized that some of the points I was trying to make were shallow, they didn\u2019t have a lot of roots, so a way of research that we have been talking about will allow me to create stronger roots.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Stills from Cotton videos, Nadia Martinez, 2021<\/small><\/div><\/div><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Can you describe a pivotal moment that helped shift something for you?<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\nN<\/strong>: I have always liked to be behind the scenes. I make my work and when I have an exhibition I am there, but I don\u2019t really want to be there. I like the work to talk for itself. One of the most difficult things was to actually put myself in front of the camera. I went little by little. I felt safe to do the exercise of making 100 one-minute videos. Everything was an experiment. I saw it as a sketch book. It didn\u2019t matter if I was there or not there. But little by little I was putting myself there. In some of them my whole body, in some of them just my hands.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\nWas this at Doug\u2019s suggestion that you use yourself in the videos?<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\nN<\/strong>: No. It was organic.\u00a0That had been such a big thing for me because I\u2019m just not comfortable to be \u201cthere\u201d. But I became comfortable being there, maybe because I\u2019m also working with the lighting and it\u2019s all dark. That was definitely one of the moments of, \u201cOh wow, I actually can do this! I\u2019m performing\u201d. I didn\u2019t know I would arrive at that \u2013 at least in this semester. So that was a big thing.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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D:<\/strong> I really sympathized or tried to sympathize with the anxieties of the body in this case, but the capacity with which we have to identify a sense of understanding of each other through the physical nature of our bodies is embodied in the labor of the artist always.<\/p>\nI think Nadia\u2019s body was always there, because of the amazing amount of skill and attention that she was able to train through the body into very complex sculptural and other forms of installation that would always create identifications with her physically.\u00a0 Nadia brought that reality, because of the history of her own practice, to me, so then I had to respond accordingly to say: your body was always there. I mean the depiction of the body is another issue, but the body was always there. For all the audiences, for all the shows she produced, years before she came to VCFA.<\/p>\n<\/div><\/section><\/div>\n